I hate being this short with this low self esteem ?

IM 5'3 18years old and don't have good luck with girls only had two girlfriends before an it's always the ones I like don't like me an ones I don't Like like me I hate it I feel fat all the time an ugly but 2 of my closest friends don't have this problem there not ugly or anything but one of thems fat and funny and the others quiet but doesn't talk much but there both way taller than me an girls always flirt with them an they always have girlfriends like yeastersay I was at a party with the tall shy one an with two of my other firend girls one was kinda gone already from the beer an. She was talking to the other who's boyfriend dumped her I had had a crush an asked her out last year but she said no were just friends so we left ot at that an still are but my drunk one was talking to her an came over an asked my tall friend hey you wanna you know cause she's a little down an my friend wa like give it to him(me) Anaheim started laughing an told her an they started making fun pf me cause I was short I was a little gone to bit I heard that girl say I could barley see him when he walked in. an after I heard that it just ruined it an I started thinking IM fat an ugly an I wanted to leave it hurt cause I was thinking she was starting to like me I know IM better looking than her boyfriend but he's also taller thann me I just hate that IM this short I an it'd really bothering me that a girl won't take me seriously cause IM short I know IM a good guy IM not all sports and wanting to f**** all the time like every other guy